you've moved God to wrath

Some of what you're going through is because you've moved God to wrath and it abides on you. That's why wherever you go you're finding wrath and it's like you can't escape it . Truth is when this is the situation the only escape is repentance returning to your first love the Lord your God your redeemer with your whole heart. 

When you forsake Him and go running after your idols laying up in store for yourselves all the treasures of this world you desire and you replace God with things and temporal comforts and you've ran so long conviction isn't there no more you sin comfortably your heart is no longer pierced by the truth none of it moves you to return to God it's because the deceitfulness of sin has hardened your heart. 

When your heart is hardened prepare for the hammer of God's word to break the rocks into pieces 

Prepare for an all consuming fire to fully engulf every where you try to run to prepare for wrath

And after all of this watch the goodness of God come full of mercy and graciously lead you back to repentance. Some will continue to harden their heart and run but those will be most miserable comparable to a prodigal sleeping and eating with the pigs . When your broken and contrite watch God move and work with the moldable clay . He is the potter we are the clay.